thinking out loud

grow old with you

what a start to spent the new year...

i just came home form the hospital because i had to stay for the night to take care of my Lola. honestly i dont like spending the night in hospitals, why so? can you imagine your room being occupied a while ago by another person, well given the fact that i am inside the hospital of course that would happen however the worst part is someone might have died there and there you were dozing of and maybe having a good dream how ironic isn't it?. It just gives me the creeps. i was so sleepy but i couldn't get my eyes shut because of this paranoia i have. darn it! I'm such a woozy...! there wasn't supposed to be something i should be afraid of and there i am keeping myself under the safety of my blanket.

enough about my idiosyncrasies..

It is just a remarkable experience for me because i got the chance to take care of her. she is the one who usually do that for us but now its my turn. i just realize one thing, you will do everything and go an extra mile for your loved ones. you make sure that everything is alright and that she is safe all the time. even though its vey hard for me to wake up because i am a "tulog mantika" kind of person i make it to a point that i make my sleep mababaw lang so that i could feel that if she needs my help in getting down and up the bed ill be there in a jiffy and assist her in doing so, making sure the dextrose will not get in the way or get entangled, she has her pillows and blanket and she is in a comfortable position. i dont mind that im always waking up or that i dont get enough sleep that time or how hard it is to get up when your feeling tired because what i do is just a small part compared to what she has done for us and i love her and i thank the Lord for giving her to us. i saw how she takes care of her sons and daughters even though each of them have their own families already. how she makes it to a point to extend help to those in need of it. all these time her priority is her family. now that she is old she shouldnt be thinking of them but herself and enjoying life. i think thats how it is your family is the essence of your existence.

when my lolo came to pick has up and i was preparing all the things and ready to go home, when he approached her i saw how he looked at her with so much love and adoration he kissed her on the forehead that was so sweet, my lola wanted to sit on the couch rather than on the bed so he helped her to get down from the bed to the couch, as we are waiting for my tita who paid the hopital bill, i saw them sweeter than ever, my lolo put my lola's both legs on his lap and he massages it and saying to me, "lakas nito"., i saw there what true love is. i think true love is where you see that GOd is the center of their lives that is why it never ends and never fades but ever burning brightly.

im praying that i would grow old with someone who will be by my side until all my hair turns to gray, all the wrinkles are wrinklier than ever, all the sags are everywhere and most of all the scent of being old would be much sweeter and there he will be with me still looking and loving each other as if it was our first moment to see each other as God as our witness and the day that God himself have written our love story to be together forever. it is indeed "for better or worse, for sickness and in health, till death do us part" that is something. ;o)

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad Carry you around when your arthritis is bad All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

I'll miss you Kiss you Give you my coat when you are cold

# posted by me myself and I @ 1/02/2006 04:15:00 AM